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Diamonds & Gold

by Motherhood

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I'm gonna get to Heaven / Lord I know I'll see you there I'm gonna put that white robe on / and set that crown upon my hair I wasn't taking my time / I had just taken a spill I wasn't drinking of that fine wine / I was scrounging for my meals And although I am a preacher's boy / I'll admit I'd gone astray And though I tried to walk that narrow road / I found it was not straight God take me still Angel Angel take my hand / and take me as I bleed I was forgetting where I came from / I was denying things I need I kept my eyes on dirty things / oh the places I could sleep And though the sleep was good and welcome / it was sour with deceit And my mother's eyes were saddened / and my father said be true But there's only so much good advice / a foolish boy can use God take me still Holy Ghost you've seen my eyes / you've seen and you have known But the things that I have shown you / only scream and growl and groan And I hope my heart is red still / and I hope what's in my veins Is the blood that I was born with / not this bad blood I have made
I got nothing to do here but wander around I got nowhere to go but to grieve I have six-hundred letters from the Devil himself Explaining all the ways I could leave I have no one to crawl to but you now I have everything under the Earth I have days that I lose to the darkness You've been cursing the day of my birth So run me through And that god-awful city wouldn't take me back After hearing the things that I said And your god-awful pity made my dry bones crack And I feared that you'd not leave my bed I stop running when stars come up over my head I can't sleep when the hyenas laugh It's a cold crooked world if you keep looking back But my lungs only breathe in the past I'm going for a walk in the river I'm going for a walk in the Dead Water Swing my bones / woman let me die I don't hate you know / but I can't tell sometimes I'm so far from home / and I been gone too long The Devil knows my name / and the ones I've wronged ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ Oh my heart / it is black and blue I am over this / I am over you And I can't say no / but I won't say yes So I'll close my eyes / and I'll let you guess Darling I'm confused again These hollow hills won't take me in Gonna have to run me through again If your knife can reach Swing my bones / woman let me die I am horrible / in my mother's eyes I can't have it all / I can't have it none Father Abraham / I'm a bastard son Crooked world / I'm a crooked man There are things around / I don't understand Like these aches and pains / that my body knows Like my restlessness / Like the way it grows
Holster your gun / 'til the time is right / 'til the call is louder Woke up my girl / in the dead of night / I couldn't go on without her I want the road now / but that road snow is coming down hard I want the road now / but that road would only do me harm Pack up my bag / with nothing / but cigarettes and bread Let go my thoughts / clear out / my ever aching head My feet are burning / but that fire will have to keep me warm My feet are burning / and my heart is torn ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ I've got Hell / in my head In my hands / oh the poison I dug a hole / so deep In my heart / to keep the noise in I'm going down to the River with rocks in my clothes I'm gonna take all the sins of the people I know I've got Hell / in my head In my hands / oh the poison Satan / your head My mother's heel / will crush you clean Satan / I always knew Love is war / my tongue is a guillotine +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ Woman I / am petrified The Holy Ghost / is coming by It's horrible / it's in my bones Never touch it but I will die from this Never crack a smile I'd never let my mother cry for this Until River I'm home River I'm home Lay me to rest on your floor Jesus please / the remedy I had it here / believe believe I'll radiate / I'll fix me up again Lucifer Lucifer come down off your high horse The tower got too tall had to tear it down of course But River I'm home
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I guess they know me best / at the church where I confess But the folks look so depressed / and the men look down my dress I always hear them talking / and looking at me strange Asking about my family / asking about my age I tell them I ain't got none / though I'm only thirty-four Mama died awhile back / Daddy's heart was poor Oh they're very sorry / yes that story sure is sad But you won't see me crying / for my old Mum and Dad Because they're up there in Heaven / and I'm still stuck down here Drunk and lonely most nights / sleeping half the year How I wish that I could join them / though I know I never will No I'll be down a' rapping / on the gates of Hell Old Luce will be excited / probably let me in himself Show me to my room / with just a table and shelf Pictures of my loved ones / and all the things that I done wrong And I only see old Satan / and the whiskey's never gone He'll never say a kind word / and I'll cry most every night Or he'll torture me with a good time / so I remember what it's like
Go away dear friends I got troubles of my own I can't heal you and I wouldn't try But they clawed at my door 'til I crawled and I roared I screamed 'the horror I'm finished I'm dying 'See my body is made up of terrible things That are one by one leaving me bare But I'd never blame them or ask you to shame them I'm poison and full of despair' Well my friends wouldn't leave me and they tried to deceive me And it tickled my heart that they lied So I kept them for counsel and they hung from my mantle And I slipped out and borrowed their ride I don't think they could tell I was ringing their bells I was putting them on for a joke They were surely surprised and wiping their eyes When they wandered outside for a smoke I put those rocks in my clothes I took them on down the road I planned on sinking like stones I was only thinking of them I was only taking their sins I had to help them repent Well I drove like the wind and God forgave my sins 'Cause He can and I thanked Him and cried My friends surely cursed me and promised to burst me And all grabbed their guns from inside For we lived in a house with no speck of a doubt Where the Lord was thanked daily for lives We were safer as many more safer with semis Rifles, revolvers and knives So they came well prepared on the road that we shared Though I sped up ahead going south With a true disregard for my life or the car Or the beer that I tipped to my mouth Well I blew out the brakes see but the gates wouldn't take me Though the saints would all swear that I tried I screamed 'I will not go slowly or tired or holy 'But foolish and young and with pride' I tripped and fell down the hall Dragged by an angry Saint Paul He wouldn't have it at all He threw me back down to Earth Said it was what I deserved Oh how I moaned and I cursed I lay in the ditch and my body did twitch And my eyes were distorted and blurred When my friends finally caught up I was sure that I'd be shot up But they saw me and their minds were deterred I begged them to save me I begged them 'don't grave me 'Don't leave me, I'll make it, I swear' They talked to each other and I called them all brother And they mumbled and pulled out their hair See they feared for my life but remembered the strife That I'd caused them an hour ago So I told them 'desert me, it was myself who hurt me 'I'll make it, though I will make it slow' As they shrunk in the darkness I could see that I'd been tarnished And at my friends' next convenience I would die So I mourned what I'd lost then I cut it from my thoughts And I limped along the road until light I couldn't go home and die I had to leave for my pride I left my family behind I needed somewhere to sleep I made it wicked and deep Saint Paul have mercy on me


released June 14, 2013

Adam Sipkema - drums, vocals
Brydon Crain - vocals, guitars
Penelope Stevens - keys, bass, vocals

Dan Tweedie played organ on ABE.
Mike Freeze played bass on River.

Recorded + Mixed by Dan Tweedie
Produced by Motherhood + Dan Tweedie
Mastered by Phillip Victor Bova at Bova Sound - Ottawa, Canada

Recorded at Chestnut Street, Dick's Last Resort, Luke + Mallory's basement and Waterhouse Studio in and around Fredericton, New Brunswick.

All songs written and performed by Motherhood.


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Motherhood is an avant-rock trio from Fredericton, NB, Canada.


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